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Kylie
My Dad passed away today just after lunch time. I feel a little all… 
24th-Sep-2010 07:07 pm
My Dad passed away today just after lunch time.

I feel a little all over the place. Exhausted, for one. But I've had so many wonderful messages on facebook, in text, in phonecalls - I have wonderful friends and thank you, all of you, for your support right now.

I'm at home, on my own. Nobody apart from me seems to think this is a good idea. This is the home I shared with him and I'm not going to avoid that. I can't do. I need to be here right now.

I'm so tired. We practically lived at the hospice this week and obviously, it's not been very easy to sleep. But the staff there were incredible. I can't thank them, or praise them enough for what they did. They were all wonderful and made him smile, laugh and feel comfortable in his most vulnerable time. Until you have to actually use a hospice I don't think you can fully appreciate just what they do and how important they are. Without how they supported us all we wouldn't have been able to get through this like we have done. We stayed together as a family, they helped us do that right there by his side every step of the way. Knowing we were there through it all means so much to me, and to my sisters.

He was one hell of a man. We had a rocky few years because we just didn't understand each other for a long time but when he and my mother split up and it was just the two of us, we became so close. It's honestly like losing my best friend right now. I talked to him about everything. Coming home to him was just something I took for granted and I see that now I can't ever do that again. Cancer is a horrible, horrible disease and it took a good man away from people that loved him far too soon. There is still so much he had to do, could do. He had such talent with his writing, with cooking. He'd always dreamed of being a chef but that'll never happen. I'm just thankful that in his last months we got a book of his poems together and sold. The hospice will also be selling them in their shops etc which I think is fantastic; a real legacy for a man with real talent.

I love my Dad. And I already miss him. I'm so, so greatful though for what we had and what we shared. I couldn't have asked for more.

♥ for my father.
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24th-Sep-2010 06:40 pm (UTC)
Love you xxx
24th-Sep-2010 06:54 pm (UTC)
I'm so, so sorry for your loss.

I whole-heartedly agree with your comments about hospices. They've given my mum so much the past few weeks. Truly wonderful places - I'm glad your dad was able to find some happiness there.

Stay strong. I'll be thinking of you.
24th-Sep-2010 07:22 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry. I hope you know we're all sending our love.
Hug.
24th-Sep-2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry. Xx
24th-Sep-2010 07:51 pm (UTC)
**hugz** hun
24th-Sep-2010 08:36 pm (UTC)
I know this has been a very difficult time for you, and I am so sorry for your loss.

Edited at 2010-09-24 08:37 pm (UTC)
24th-Sep-2010 08:47 pm (UTC)
So sorry Kylie x
24th-Sep-2010 10:17 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear of your loss - *hugs* xx
25th-Sep-2010 08:50 am (UTC)
I'm sending you good thoughts. I am sorry for your loss.
26th-Sep-2010 11:22 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry. I will be praying for all of you. Take care.
28th-Sep-2010 02:55 pm (UTC)
Realise I'm late with the comment, but only just reading my LJ posts again.

I'm so sorry for your loss. The people in the hospices are wonderful for providing the care they do, so I'm glad they provided some comfort to you all. Take care x
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